Unusual in this day it may seem to have so many feet within my home, yet to me it is what I have come to accept and know. It could be no other way. You see I have raised now ten children of these varieties and another. All gifts granted unto me for such a short while. Some I gave life to through my own body, others coming hand in hand through the front door with another.

The stream of souls at times seemed as if it were never ending. I did not mind. However, nothing was ever missing for these children who always believed they lived a life they could be enthusiastic about, for they never felt they did without, they knew love in ways most never imagine. Undoubtably, the greatest gift they shared with me.

Perhaps it helps some to hold their philosophy and catch their feverish charm. Just let them be and follow their example. This was my first step. I had to learn to change my thinking about them, my role and responsibilities and shift with the ever changing paradigm. I could and would do this. It was being requested of me in a very big way. I would give no less. They are the gifts, not the burdens or challenges of my every day.

Looking back it has all happened so fast. Many have left for college now, the days of stories, imaginations to behold are dwindling to the few who still remain snuggled up close to me in bed sharing stories that would delight and amaze. For those who are away, they still shine with such a light as this, they use it differently unless called upon to sparkle and shine. A twinkle still in their eyes. They have their own purpose and know what direction they have chosen. I watch each unique in their mission delve into the gift of manifestation, differently, yet the same. They understand ONENESS.

I would never change the gifts or expereience I have had in this lifetime. I wonder would they? It has allowed me the opportunity to truly expereience self in a fully satisfying way. One day by their example I may know as they do, who I am and my truest purpose as clearly as they seem too. I will trust my instincts, memories and intution as if looking through a child's eyes.

I will live a child-like existance all as a result of knowing so many souls, so personally who have taken a moment out of their existance to touch my soul, to share themselves with me in such a marvelous way. I received the gift. I pray I did my best with each gift loaned to me. I now send each on their way with a kiss.

Love and Gratitude,
suzyq

Zan,

While One True Faith is often the first looked at...

what is wrong with giving it a place near the other sections, many locked near the bottom. Let's begin to reactivate this area. One day at a time! Beginning with this new topic!

What do you think?

The search for these two subjects is huge all on its own! I feel it needs to be clear on the page when they click to our site.

Love and Gratitude,
suzyq

Be nice...

Imsq, finished the tutorial and now I have a headache! I felt it was hard. Although I did get up to a level two in the mining room...I don't know how or why?

Turns out I am good with weapons...ya think! HEE! HEE!

It would be more fun to play head to head next to someone who could answer my questions as they came up!

Love and Kisses,
suzyq

Oh for Heavens sake, piss me off today!

For those who do not know, I had a stroke and died, (actually 3 strokes last Summer, alone). I know of another on this site who for sure had a near death experience.

Perhaps more than those who would care to confess have died and been brought back. We hold stories inside only we know to be truth. We have seen the other side. I do not expect you to understand. You did not have the experiential lesson I did. I do not glorify this. Yet it did turn my life around and send it in a completely different direction. It did turn the others life around too. My priorities are not the same. I live life, so that others may simply live these days.

Charles Kingsley has a quote I love: We act as though comfort and luxury were the chief requirements of life, when all that we need to make us really happy is something to be enthusiastic about!

I for one am enthusiastic about Living, Breath, Spirit! Peace! Oneness!

Death is not being glorified, nor is it being mystified, hidden and feared as is so commmon for humanity in so many cultures.

Good thing I haven't added the curse feature yet, because in my mind right now are a few choice words to use before I do! I ask no forgiveness, for I am entitled to feel and express in the moment, same as each of you.

Ignorance! Do not put blame outside of such minds as those who would strap bombs to themselves to take not only their lives, but those of others. Choice! This happens, I am not oblivious or living under a rock. Yet, when they believe it is because their God wants a sacrafice from them and sees it as an honor and a ticket directly to His Heaven, this is where in my opinion the distortion comes in. That is thinking of their own minds, their cultures making, yet do we ever hear the leaders sending their own small children in too be the ultimate sacrafice to die. I for one have a child on the front lines fighting for peace. Following orders. I pray he chooses discernment moment to moment.

Rather, where is the compassion for perhaps they just do not know! It is THE WAY for them at this time. They seem boxed in by their own thoughts and unable to use discernment or see beyond what they have been told. How sad indeed. I often wonder what hides within my own mind. Lessons learned that lay distorted?

What sickens me is that the parents of these same would strap that same bomb to their small children and send them into what they perceive as enemy territory and still call this a great thing! I am mortified! "Poof" Vanished before their Mothers eyes! I would sooner die than witness a travesty such as this! I love and honor our Soliders for what they face and pray endlessly for World peace, let God's will be done in the highest good of all mankind.

Actually I am not sure even why I was spared for certain. A day often does not pass me by when I do not wonder why a child has died rather than I. It is an endless question, a circle for which I may never know the answer and I accept this. I trudge on...give each moment my best. I am here and I can!

Love and Gratitude,
suzyq